Reflections @ 2016

 

2016 flew. 12 months passed by. When we were in the month of January, we thought, “God, it is going to be a long year.” Never did we realized that today as i am typing my way in my little space in this world wide web, a year has gone. It is an amazing year, so much to be thankful of. As i am writing this, i do not know why, but tears are welling out. Probably, we had gone through a lot this year and to think back on how we made it through with God’s grace, we have no words to describe how tough yet sweet it is and we are here because of the support we have from the Almighty, and also you, our dearest family and friends, from near and far. Yes, that is 2016!

January 

Our last trip as twosome. Isa joined us but she was in my womb. It was tired but very joyful trip.

February

Met up with my pregnancy buddy which was also my high school classmates. Our babies are due almost the same date 😀 it was a beautiful pregnancy journey with you, Ellis. I truly enjoy every updates exchanged with you during our monthly check up.

March

Baby Isa is growing in me and I am enjoying every single moment.

April

Had a blast with my spanish family welcoming baby Isabella. Feeling beyond blessed and touched. It was a moment i would be remembering always and it is a story i would be telling Isabella when she grows up.

 

My dearest colombian friends, Pablo and Diana was leaving to Australia for a new adventure. I was sad for many days because i missed them but i am also happy as i know they are in a very nice country! Painted this to wish them great journeys in life, no matter how many journey they would be having in life!

May

Heavily pregnant. We went all the way to the botanical garden on a scorching hot day to take a series of pregnancy photos. It was exhausting but all worth it. I didnt realize i had such a big bump until i look back at those photos…#missingmybabybump

June

I had some serious hot flashes during my stay in Kuching while waiting to give birth. It was hormonal and i could not control it. I felt sick, caught cold and had flu because i slept near the strong fan without any blanket. It was a waiting game everyday on when Isabella is going to be born.

July

2 July 2016 – met up with my beautiful dominican republic italian friend who came to Kuching. Never did i ever think that 5 days later Isabella was born!

7 July 2016 – Little Isa chose a nice birthdate for herself. This photo is precious because there was so many emotions in it. I was tired but relieved, and beyond happy after giving birth to little Isa. Pandamopi was beyond words when he saw a very tiny grey baby coming out from me. Baby isa did not give a loud cry. She probably was shy so she cried like a cat!

August

Isabella is one month old. Confinement is finally over!

Celebrated my birthday as a mom for the first time with family in Kuching

September

It was tough adjusting to new life, especially with a very young baby and then getting back to work after 1 full months of rooming in with baby 24/7. Grateful for a mom-in-love who came all the way from Penang to help us settled down.

Went straight back to work when Isa was only one month old. I had separation anxiety and cried on my first few days back to work but smiled to myself when nanny’s daughter sent me this! Her shirt is too cheeky!! I experienced letdowns when isa is feeding at nanny’s. It’s amazing how this little one gives me such great strength and motivation to work 😀 I will never give up!

Little Isa is officially a big sister now because little cousin Oli is born on 10 September 2016. Cant wait to let Isa play with Oli 😀

October 2016

3 months old isa continues to grow into a happy little girl. We can never love her enough 😀

November

Back to The Reading Room with my spanish family again after a long time, this time with Isa in our midst. It was a beautiful moment and what we left in the rooms was memories, nothing else…

It seems that the grey baby that was born 4 months ago knows how to appreciate and enjoy books now 😀

 Mom flew in to Singapore to spend some time with Isa and it was a great time..

Attempted to participate in #theadventretreat 2016 but stopped half way due to unforeseen circumstances. Will participate again this year..

December 

 December is exciting. Spend a very short weekend for a wedding but did super many things that in the end Isabella’s just dozed off without waking up for milk…

Attended my wedding mc, Gloria & Mervyn’s wedding dinner. It was beautiful.

 Missed  #lovekatapault wedding party but we shared the joy! +Kathryn Chin  & Paul Ong.

Our very first christmas together. Happy Isa!

12 amazing months, with our fair share of ups and downs. The fact that i am still typing now means life is still great as it is 🙂 Thank you, Lord for your provision and protection! All glory to You.

burp…urp

burp-imageIt’s milk time again,
Her tiny tummy is growling,
Her big eyes looking at me,
She opens her lips and cries for milk,
It’s a cue not to be missed,
For once its missed,
A loud cry to follow.

She wriggles and struggles,
Half way through the feed,
Head on my palm,
Buttock seated on my lap,
Gently pat her back,
Counting one to ten,
It’s a cue not to be missed,
For once its missed,
Milk posseting to follow.

Drunken with milk,
Eyes opening and closing,
Neck arching,
Squirming like a worm,
Pouting like ikan puput,
Figuring all the bubbles,
That might have trapped along the way,
It’s a cue not to be missed,
For once its missed,
A loud angry cry to follow.

Suddenly the loud burp came,
So loud and satisfying,
Like a big comma,
Amidst a long sentence,
And so the milking continues,
Peaceful and calm again,
After the long loud burp.

Burp..urp..

*ikan puput = longfin herring fish

first bath

first-bathO’ little Isabella,
tiny little red baby,
day two of life
and she is having her very first bath in life.

Grandma carried her,
With tender and gentleness,
for she is so tiny and cute,
ready to awaken new senses.

Grandma wets little Isa’s hair with warm water,
Running her wet fingers in her fine hair,
Gently but firm,
Securely loved,
Slowly places her down in the little green tub.

O’ little Isabella,
She is awakened,
Curious yet exciting,
Cries a little,
Calms after that,
Eyes blinking,
Limbs moving,
In the little green tub,
Full of warm herbal bath,
Such a beautiful sight to see.

When bath time is over,
Grandma picks her up,
And wrap her tightly in a towel.
She smiles with her eyes,
Telling grandma that she likes the bath.

Grandma hugs her so gently,
Pats her down until she’s dry,
Powders her with baby powder,
Puts on clean cloth,
Wraps her in clean linen,
Isabella smells so fresh and clean.

So peaceful and calm,
Ready to milk and
Fall asleep slowly
Into her little dreamland.

birth of our little daughter Isabella

img_0951Life is full of surprises. At this juncture of our life,  Pandamopi & I am humbled to be blessed with this beautiful experience in this journey of life – becoming daddy and mummy. The birth of baby Isabella is one of the most beautiful moments in life that we would not forget in this life. It is a miracle and a blessing. We thank God for this little beautiful life given to us.

Labour pain was a long-suffering one – 36 hours or so. Waves of contraction came and go, at increasing frequencies as the interval shortened. Never would I expect that contraction pain could be so unbearable, but the love for our baby enabled me to go for extra miles. Wave after wave of contraction, I know that we get to see baby soon but before that I need to go through this labour of love.

We finally get to see our baby after 36 hours of contraction and 1 hour of active pushing. We would be remembering this magical moment for life. All pain disappeared when we see our beautiful little one as the doctor placed her on my chest. She opens her eyes and blinked gently, trying to figure light for the very first time in her life. No wonder in Spanish, giving birth (dar la luz) literally means “give the light.” Baby sees light the first time when she is born. Such a beautiful moment.

We looked at each other for the first time. Pandamopi and I looked at each other again, overjoyed.

So, we are no longer two but three now. Baby Isabella is joining the bandwagon and we are so looking forward to many exciting moments and adventures ahead!

of squats and stairs climbing…

squatsssThe waiting game continues as we all are counting down the days of giving birth to Isabella. Most of my friends who were my pregnant buddies who are scheduled to give birth almost the same time as me has already pass through the “exam” one by one. I had a feeling that Isabella and I might be the last team standing.

The month of June has been a waiting month. I learnt the lesson of being patient, to appreciate the feeling of being pregnant (at least for the very last month or last few weeks). It has been a tiring one, with my baby bump getting bigger and heavier each day. While some of my pregnant buddies are displaying some symptoms like having flu/nasal congestion, diarrhea, nesting syndrome (sleeping a lot and also sudden surge of energy to clean and prepare the nest for baby), back pain, swollen legs and noses, i experienced these symptoms but they come and go. While some pregnant mummies are having swollen legs as early as 3 weeks prior to estimated due date, my legs swelled very minimally even at this moment — 5 days before due date. As much as I am fearful of the potential pain that I might be facing when giving birth, right now I am more concerned on delivering baby Isabella safely. It is amazing how waiting can somehow dilute fear.

Upon my sister’s and mom’s advice on inducing labour naturally, they told me that squats and stairs climbing helps. I tried both stairs climbing and squats every other day. Stairs climbing makes me breathless because it is more to cardio. Started from 10 rounds (up and down) and then slowly increased to 30 rounds. I did squats at the yard some days ago, combined with breathing exercises and then did more squats in bedroom again. Boy, i was sweating a lot and my thighs are burning. Surprisingly, these two exercises did helped the “lightening” process of the baby. I could feel baby bump going slightly downwards. More squats & stairs climbing, and hopefully, we will make it as a team soon, baby!

As I am ending this entry soon, I’m going back to my late pregnancy fitness routine — more squats and stairs climbing! Bring it on!

flores silvestres (wildflower)

wildflowersAyer estaba pasando un poco de tiempo en el patio y me di cuenta con flores silvestres. Admiré el espíritu de flores silvestres, porque aunque no hay ningún lo mejor condición, se pueden crecer que ningún puede imaginar y me acuerdo una frase sobre las flores silvestres.

“como flores silvestres, debe permitir que crezca en todos los lugares que la gente pensó que nunca lo haría. “

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Yesterday I was spending sometime at the patio and I noticed some wild flowers.  I admired the spirit of wild flowers because, even though the condition are not the best, they grow like no one could imagine and I was reminded by a frase about wild flowers.

“like wildflowers, you must allow yourself to grow in all the places that people thought you never would.”

黑眼 hēi yǎn (black eye)

blackeye

En Kuching tenemos un perro,
se llama hēi yǎn (黑眼),
los ojos negros el significado,
grande pero delgado,
vive en una casa con Junior,
ladran cuando me ven,
como si tuviera un extraño a ellos.

Hice yoga al aire libre ayer,
los perros me asombran y ladran,
cerré mis ojos,
buscando la paz mientras los perros en medio del caos.

Las manos juntas,
estoy agraciado,
por la vida tan perfecta en este momento,
bendiciones y felicidad,
en el patio trasero de la nuestra casa.

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In Kuching we have a dog,
his name is hēi yǎn (黑眼),
black eyes is its meaning,
big but thin,
lives in a house with Junior,
they bark when they see me,
as if i am a stranger to them.

I did yoga in open air yesterday,
the dogs wondered and barked,
i closed my eyes,
seeking peace while the dogs are in chaos

Hands together,
I am thankful,
for the perfect life at this moment,
blessings and happiness,
in this backyard of our house.